By the time you read this, I might have been deported to a country I haven’t seen since I was 4

By Phoeun You. Posted July 27, 2022

Intro: We are pleased to present this direct appeal from Phoeun You, which was also published in the San Francisco Chronicle on July 25, 2022. Please see the instructions at the end of the article on how you can help prevent his deportation. Many thanks to Kathy Kojimoto and Asian Americans Advancing Justice for keeping us informed about this and other cases of  ICE detention and deportation of Cambodian Americans.

Last week, I got news that the Biden administration will deport me.

I am currently sitting in an ICE Detention Center in Bakersfield, defeated. And it feels like the end of life as I know it.

Last year, after serving 26 years and earning my release from San Quentin State Prison, I was hopeful I would finally go home. Instead of being reunited with my family and community after paying my debt to society, however, California transferred me directly to Immigration and Customs Enforcement detention.

Phoeun You was a graphic designer for the San Quentin News. Photo by Javier Jimenez, SQ News.

I came to the U.S. as a refugee and as a child; I was born in Cambodia during the Khmer Rouge genocide. When I was 4 years old, my family and I fled war and took refuge in Thailand before relocating to America.

We settled in Long Beach in Southern California and that was where I was raised. Adjusting to life there was difficult. My family suffered from the trauma of war and life in Long Beach often didn’t make things easier. I witnessed and experienced poverty, racism, violence and gangs. I had difficulties finding my place in society, so in my teens I, too, turned to gang life. In 1995, I took an innocent person’s life.

I have been incarcerated for the majority of my life. I entered prison at 21. Today, I am 48.

Prison, however, is where I began to turn my life around.

In 2003, I learned that my sister was murdered by her boyfriend. Amid the pain and sorrow, a seed of transformation was planted. A true understanding of the pain and harm that I had caused to so many people began to register. Sorrow and remorse became my guiding lights.

From that point on, I sought any opportunity to better myself and give back to society. And I began in earnest to account for my actions and the pain I have caused — to the victims, the broader community and my family.

While at San Quentin State Prison, I received my associate degree and I became a certified crisis counselor sponsored by Bay Area Women Against Rape. I worked for the San Quentin News and co-founded ROOTS, an Asian and Pacific Islander ethnic studies program. I worked with incarcerated individuals and survivors of crime in the Victims and Offender Education Group program, which allowed me to mentor incarcerated people through the process of accountability and healing.

Throughout my incarceration, I sat in healing circles to discuss rehabilitation, accountability, re-entry and ways to reduce recidivism. I met with public leaders such as George Gascon, now the district attorney of Los Angeles County, and former California Assembly member and now attorney general, Rob Bonta. I gained a greater commitment to serve my community once released. In honor of my sister, I hope to one day devote my life in service to women dealing with domestic violence.

In recent years, California has recognized that people who committed crimes as youth, such as me, were not fully developed cognitively. Laws like SB261, enacted in 2015, now recognize that we have the capacity to mature and rehabilitate. As a result of this law, which expanded youth offender parole hearings, I was found suitable for early release based on my growth and rehabilitation.

Yet instead of freedom on the day of my release, I was shackled by ICE and have been detained ever since.

Phoeun You’s mother Yai ma Mony, and father Ket You hold photos of him. (Bridget Bennett | Survival Media Agency). Photo from Asian Americans Advancing Justice website.

More than 2,600 immigrants like me experienced this kind of “double-punishment” in the past two years. This harms families, our state and our country. Why do we invest in criminal justice reforms for youth offenders who rehabilitate and then sabotage those efforts by deporting them?

To be sure, some may argue that it is in the nation’s interests to deport people like me who have had a serious conviction in the past. But I served my time, and I have already been deemed not a concern to public safety by Gov. Gavin Newsom, who supported my parole.

Through my experiences, I have something to offer that can help heal our society troubled by violence. I have facilitated trauma healing work with those who committed crimes, and with victims and survivors of crime, which could help prevent others from going down the path I did.

California is a sanctuary state that prides itself on being a welcoming environment to immigrants. Yet sadly, there are thousands like myself who have been handed over to ICE after serving their time — transferred from one cage to another.

That’s why I support passage of AB937 from Assembly Member Wendy Carillo, D-Boyle Heights (Los Angeles County), which would prevent this double punishment of immigrants and refugees, and give people like me a chance to reintegrate into society after completing their sentences.

I may be deported to Cambodia in two weeks — a country I have never truly known. My last hope to stop my deportation is a pardon from Gov. Newsom.

But if that pardon doesn’t come, I still hope that our state will transform its policies and pass AB937. Give people like me the chance to live up to our potential and contribute to the greater good.

Author’s Bio: Phoeun You is a trained facilitator in trauma healing work with survivors of crime and offenders.

See this thank you message from Phoeun You:

Here’s the draft letter you can send to Gov. Newsom on behalf of Phoeun You:



Office of the Governor

State Capitol

Attn: Legal Affairs/Clemency

Sacramento, CA 95814

Re: Letter in Support of a Pardon for Phoeun You #A-023884337 / CDCR# K30232

Dear Governor Newsom:

On behalf of [Organization Name], we/I, write in strong support of Mr. Phoeun You’s request for pardon and respectfully urge your timely response on the matter. Phoeun is at imminent risk for deportation to Cambodia, a country he fled as a child and has no ties to. He is an invaluable member of my community, a leader and mentor that needs to be reunited with his family.

[Insert Background on Organization, Mission, and connection to Phoeun if any. And any additional message on why you support his pardon]

[ Insert any personal stories of your experiences with Phoeun here or further below wherever it makes sense.]

Phoeun is a refugee who has only known the United States to be his home. After his family escaped war and genocide in Cambodia, Phoeun came to the US when he was five years old. After resettlement, like many refugees his family lived in poverty and without adequate mental health and financial resources. Growing up in Long Beach, Phoeun and Asian youth like him were also often bullied at school. For a sense of belonging and protection, Phoeun joined a gang at 13. One day, when Phoeun was picking his nephew up from school, several rival gang members attacked them. Wanting to protect his nephew, Phoeun responded the only way he knew at the time—retaliation. This led to a tragic loss of life, for which Phoeun was arrested and sentenced to 35 years to life in prison.

For the next 26 years, Phoeun would undergo deep transformation, accountability, and healing. He dedicated his time incarcerated to understanding the harm he had caused, and focusing on healing and growth. Phoeun was a leader and participant in many groups and programs around personal transformation, restorative justice, education, vocational training, and community service. For example, he worked as a journalist and layout designer for San Quentin News and joined the Society of Professional Journalists, became a founding member of ROOTS (Restoring Our Original True Selves), a self-help program focused on ethnic studies and connection to history and culture, and is an alumnus of the Last Mile, an entrepreneurship program focused on technology and business training. Phoeun was certified as a counselor by BAWAR, (Bay Area Women Against Rape), graduated from VOEG (Victim Offender Education Program), a victim awareness program focused on unpacking trauma both from offender and victim’s perspectives, the ARC (Addiction Recovery Counseling) program, NVC (Non-Violent Communications) curriculum, and Peer Health Education by Centerforce, among other programs.  In 2015, Phoeun graduated with an AA degree from Patten University. In addition to these accomplishments, he is a respected mentor and has guided peers in prison to making positive transformations in their lives.


1 Comment

  1. Ravi Chandra on July 28, 2022 at 8:05 am

    Readers can also submit their letters to Gavin Newsom online –

    There is also a fundraising drive to help Phoeun in case he does get deported to Cambodia.

    if you would like a tax deduction. make donation to Mindful Peacebuilding (a 501c3 nonprofit) with the memo line “for Phoeun”

    write a check with “Phoeun” in the memo line to MPB and mail it to:
    Mindful Peacebuilding
    PO Box 5612
    Elmwood Station
    Berkeley, CA 94705

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